i smell good.

I just did my haircut, my stylist calls it the "Gatsby Cut". because i remind of the guy in the ad. i think it looks okay though, maybe leave it a day or two to grow out.

i'm contemplating whether to start telling people who's been asking for my blog, my readership currently is rather exclusive. but yes, i've been participating in an e-zine... so i'd be posting there too. i'd link it the next time i think of it.

for now, i think i'd mash my psp a little.

My past condensed on the net.

I've been reading backlogs of my blogs, past ones. (some sad, some happy)

I've come a long way indeed. Cheers to the future!

Week One.

So i've been late for the past 4 days. Thank my lucky planets no attendance to be taken seriously this week. I've yet to start taking 154 to school. Can't seem to wake on time, think i'd have to work out some agreements with my lovely classmates to give me morning calls.

I've skipped my dental appointment today, although i've like 3 missing brackets and 1 loose bracket. partially out of guilt, i haven't put on the orthodontic bands for ages. i need discipline.

But for now i'd like to blog about 'The taxi incident'

You see, i took a taxi to school today, thinking that today'll be the day to break my late streak. Boarding the taxi and realising that the driver's half-awake is not a good thing. It was going relatively well up to the point he turned into Clementi Avenue 2 from the AYE, but he turned out into the expressway again. The time being 8.50, and my lecture beginning at 9. He then turned into Eng Neo with a suggestion from me that went something like 'i think you should turn out at the next exit'

And so, to cut the long story short, i reached school at 9.30.

I almost did want to enter the LT but i think my sixth sense held me back, and told me to go to the canteen to sit it out till the break. Good thing too, because if i had gone in, i think results would have been disastrous. The door that i wanted to go through was at front of the LT, with me thinking that it was the backdoor. Well, at least it wasn't all bad today.

Anecdotes like these make me tired. In other news, i've to get rid of my goatee. That's saddening.

This or that

Should i get a part time job, or go into the phletora of CCAs that school has to offer. Decisions, decisions.

Maybe the night safari.

dang...

blogger's down. i didn't even know.

A quote to remember.

I'd like to share something i heard over the course of my studies in Singapore.

"You don't know what you don't know, until you know that, you don't know what you don't know"

How many times have you been you asked a question, and you simply replied "I don't know." Chances are, you might know, but you're just too pent up to offer up whatever bits of useful information you might have. That's sad.

Go enrich yourself, hit the library or the newspapers. Learn some stuff that you've always wanted but didn't bother to.

You'll feel better.

I've been unwell.

Symptoms of flu started when i headed to Sentosa with the FOC group. Too much singing of boyband tunes, and oldies. Its funny how i can't seem to spell right when i'm sick, like i keep thinking symptom has no 'p'.

Anyway, to keep y'all in the loop. i've been for orientations and its' miscellaneous activities the past 2 weeks, it all started on the 10th of April, the Good Friday week. I'm part of Oannes for Freshmen Orientation Camp (FOC) organised by Ngee Ann Student Union (NPSU) and part of Bombastic Mambosa (BM) for School of Business and Accountancy Orientation (bAoc)

Specifically, Oannes 3 (biggest slackest group yet) and BM 9 (well, each have their own merits)

My cough's not gone yet, its quite annoying. I hope i get well soon.

mind fucked.

Sometimes you brain suddenly tells you that you're all alone in the world and nobody gives a shit.

Then i realise that somewhere else in the world, people feel that way too.

that grants me some form of solace.

My pastime.

I could just sit here, listening to my music. Feel the lyrics bore into my being.

Getting in touch with myself, a different kind of meditation, the bass line, my heart-beat.

Cue the wind instruments, the gentle percussion, the soothing plucking of the classical.

The voice filled with emotions... overflowing with meaning.

My personal nirvana.

i'm wracking my brains for a title.

Seriously, whoever's been thinking of me, just drop me a message or a call.

The vibes you're sending out is making me sneeze. continually. i know you need a dose of me, everyone does.

so please, some relief for me?

(p.s. no i do not have the avian flu)

what i keep telling people.

Keep your options open

One thing i learnt is that availability is one of the greatest abilities, so don't get tied down to just about anything that comes your way. Practise some form of quality management and you'd find that your life will turn in the direction that you wish it to go.

Most people just jump into situations, when what they really should be is to hang back a bit, because there'll always be something around the corner that'll make you go 'hey, i should've gone for that' give it time if you've some to spare, or you'll regret it, almost all the time. Negativity in goal-setting does not work, so try phrasing it more to the 'yes' than the 'no'

For example.

If you wanna quit smoking, you can't say, I will stop smoking. because the sentence just makes you think of smoking. hence, it almost never works because everytime you see the statement, you think of smoking. its like me telling you to stop thinking about your left foot. see, you can't stop thinking about it. our brain's pretty complex, i'm just messing with you.

So instead, you say something like i will smoke 1 stick a day. that way, you have something to work towards. 1 stick, 24 hours. stick to it and it'll work wonders. then try working on a replacement, like drinking water everytime you get the cravings.

because we all know smoking is bad for you.

About talents.

Nurture whatever you're good at, you never know when it'll come in handy.

Learn to appreciate people, only good can come out of it.

Believe in good intentions, life is too short to make enemies.

Remember this day.

Today's a rainy day, listening to "Starry Starry Night" brings back memories, nostalgia blinding my mind's eye. Over the course of my life, i must have interacted with more than a few thousand people. I am thankful for every single one of them, for with every encounter, i take along something important from that.

I realise it is true, every single one of you all out there, the ones i love, the ones i do not love, the ones i loved, the ones that love me, the people who sacrificed for me, the people i gave my time to, the people who stood by my worst times, the people who hate my guts; All of you i ought to thank. For i always come out better.

I'd like to say one thing, i'd rather you were my friends, than my enemies. Alas, not everybody thinks like me. and sorry's always the hardest thing to say, ain't it.

"For when no hope was left in sight, on that starry starry night, you took your life like lovers often do"

Smooth. Smoove.

I've fallen in love with R.E.M. all over again. their lyrics don't make sense like how Oasis doesn't. its all about the rifts. and refrains, and audience participation.

oh, i've gotten my laptop sleeve, kinda. its rather big for a sleeve, but yeah. Eagle Creek, lifetime warranty, what more can i ask for? everything's falling well into place, i serve my last duty this Sunday, then orientation coming Monday till Thurs, then another orientation next Tues to Friday. then school.

'J' division is much better than MHA imho (in my humble opinion) i think i'm people-orientated. its been that way the longest time.

oh, i went to M.O.S. last night, it was good, free entry! haha. for lex's belated birthday, who probably got a rather dandy present, just getting attached and all, to somebody i know too! strange pairing, but still, he's happy. i'd be getting the MOS band soon enough.

Today might be the best day of my life.

All i need is confirmation of my disruption on the 17th of April.

After which, later this afternoon, would be the last time i'd be in office. i'd need to bring back my uniform and shoes, then clear some claims documentation. then its over!

I need a laptop sleeve too, any recommendations?

it hits like a truck.

i'm going to work at 4 a.m. in the morning.

damn!

So strange.

I think i've been working so hard its gone to my head. i woke up, and just before that, when i was at the stage where you're half-asleep and half-awake, i dreamt that it was a working day today.

hardcore...

but truth to be told, i've been slaving pretty hard for the nation, like i've been working on weekends when i'm not supposed to, breaking away from the slacker lifestyle i've been ardently persuing. i'll be doing duty tonight too, like 4 in the morning. for Ching Ming! usual traffic control stuff. hope they don't give us smelly gloves and vests to wear. haha, sometimes its just so gross.

anyway, in my fashion of frequently switching topics on whim, i'd like to say that i've been going to church again. on and off though. like a fortnightly thing. maybe it just doesn't cut it for me. i don't know anymore, let me ponder about it a little.

oh yeah, there're 2 new parks in my area! sounds too good to be true huh. i'm going to go look at them a bit.