so i made the switch.

albeit involuntarily.

with blogger coming out of beta, and making switching compulsory, i did. this new version's more or less the same. some kinks here and there. but i guess that's alright.

well first up, the bad news. my anti-virus expired. (insert melodramatic symphony) (fade in the minor keys) looks like i've to look for other free alternatives.

i feel distance between some of my friends. and that saddens me. but such is the natural cycle of friendship no? Only a rare few only truly stands by you no matter what. its just that its harder for me to accept that. harder than most.

a safety net i set up has always served me well. friends i made throughout all my endeavours. but most of all; i know that no man is an island. my tendencies for feigning ignorance and callousness serve as my shield and armour against the harsher conditions of the world. but do all you can to survive. or suffer from natural selection.

so right now, i'm suffering forms of sleeping disorders. byproducts of mugging for the now-past final examinations. i pray next sem would be good to me. i'll be so good to you, promise. time to think is a luxury. time to reflect is rare, and is what the holidays allow me to do.

time to let go of some things, and to re-prioritise others. Appraise me people, let me know what i haven't been doing right.

Samurize My Day!

Alright. I'll make a list, because i'm OCD. i'm kidding, i'm bored.

New Stuff I Got:

• 160GB External HDD
• Web Cam
• DVD Camcorder
• Hours of video fun!

Stuff I Did Today:

• Completed King Kong (well, kinda)
• Decided to give up 100% for GTA:SA (getting kinda bored)
• Cleared all my monetary debts!
• Put my mind to saving up.

So what am i saving for?

• New phone!
• actually, that's it.

All attributes are in the 'at least' capacity: Something that's a smartphone, 3.2 mp camera, vga screen, 16 million colours, wifi, 3g, quad band, bluetooth, ad2p, fm radio, common headphone port, gps, voice command, 3 days battery life, clear screen, good input.

Okay people its midnight now.

Happy Chinese New Year my dear readers! Be good to the Year of the Pig, and it will be real nice to you too.

obituaries

Equipment death

My desktop has been found dead.

Neglect should be the chief Cause of Demise.

OH Well. That's the second computer in 3 years. Moving on.

I love all that jazz.

Seriously, and swing. and broadway. and cabaret.

i just ended softball lessons today, but not before stubbing my left shin into the bat. can't imagine going through the sport without injuries. nothing serious. something that reminds me that i played softball.

another jolly 9 days for the 4 remaining examinations. then i'll be looking for work. 7 weeks of break!

Nine-Four-Seven. lock that in.

oh and i can sing those sad songs so well, more so than i could like say... 5 years ago. experience is the best teacher and i believe it.

Happy February Everybody.

Yes, indeed, i have just skipped January altogether and jumped into wishing you a happy new month. I know you check back all the time, but its been a rather bad time for me. I'm emotionally conflicted.

Brilliant facade, withering inside. Thanks to everyone that asks how i am. and show some form of concern. but i guess that doesn't count for much because i'm just too jaded to what's going on. Angoraphobia's got me. Yes, its got me this time. Smack right in my very persona.

When day becomes night,
And night becomes day,
you know something's wrong

trapped in this rut which i constructed around me.

i need to douse myself in music therapy, its brought me back more times than i've counted on it. or maybe write some song. or poetry. something upbeat.

what do we really want to do?

me? i've gotta stop letting things zip by me. take hold, take control. rein it in.